Today was a fairly typical Monday in that I darted around every unit at the hospital where I proudly serve as a pediatric chaplain. Due to a visit with a patient’s mom Friday afternoon while the patient napped, I knew one goal for the day was to tell a Godly Play story to a young girl on our Acute Care floor. It took a few visits before she and I got some time together. She was either asleep, in the playroom, or working with Occupational Therapy each time I stopped by in the morning. After lunch, the timing was right.
I grabbed a pillow case from the cart of clean linens on my way to her room, and then we chatted while we cleared off her hospital tray. The tray was between us, and I laid the pillow case on her tray before bringing the metallic gold box out of my “Chaplain Jessica” monogrammed L.L. Bean tote. I placed it on the pillow case to keep Infectious Disease and me happy, and we began “The Parable of the Good Shepherd.”
We paused for a second to move her chest tube from underneath the tray wheel and went right back into it. Her key words during wondering were “scared” and “safe.” After the sheep, green grass, the shepherds, and everything else was safely back in their box, I gave the patient blank paper and coloring pencils. She drew her mother. I asked her what she wanted me to tell God when we pray, and she said, “That I feel safe when I’m scared. And can I go to the playroom again?” She was suddenly ready for the playroom, and I headed to PICU, one floor below.
A few nurses and Respiratory Therapists were at the Pediatric ICU (PICU) nurses’ station, and they happily greeted me. They noticed my tote bag and asked if I’d read them a story. My “Chaplain Jessica” bag has become pretty synonymous with activities and beautiful children’s books I use for spiritual play. I use “I wonder” phrases with every book, regardless if it has anything to do with Godly Play, and those “I wonder” statements have opened some heavy doors. I started pulling out some of the books that were in the bag today, and everyone looked wide-eyed and scared at the first one, designed for helping oncology patients find hope. We went through the titles and how I use each book until I said, “And then there’s a Godly Play story in there.”
“What’s that?” Asked a PICU nurse. I beamed and explained it. “Tell us that one!” Another nurse said. While I ran to get a pillow case, the first nurse said, “Oh my goodness, y’all! She’s so excited!” The area was a bit awkward, so I sat on the desk of the nurses’ station, while three nurses and two Respiratory Therapists scooted chairs close to me. I told “The Parable of the Good Shepherd,” and it was powerful. These are nurses that are trained to make quick decisions to save lives, and they carry heavy stories. They were still. They were mesmerized. Only one spoke during the wondering, and the rest were frozen and fixated. One person had tears in her eyes that she never let fall.
After the story was in the gold box, I shared more about Godly Play and my experience with it. I’m a Godly Play newbie, but every moment with it changes me. I told my co-workers about the Godly Play Clinical Training I attended. During the training, my friend and fellow pediatric chaplain, Ryan Campbell, told “The Parable of the Good Shepherd” to a room full of chaplains. We processed how the story made us feel, and I remember telling Ryan that I didn’t think he was harsh enough when he put the dark places away. I wanted him to smash the dark places into the box and destroy them once and for all. Every piece was put away just as Volume 3 teaches, but, in my heart, the dark places needed to be treated with much more disgust.
When I shared that reaction with the group today, one woman nodded her head emphatically with her eyes focused on the box. She got it. She stared at the box like she could see straight through the wood and was able to destroy whatever that place was for her. After some silence, she said, “What’s this called again?” And she typed it into her phone.
I had to leave the unit to go lead a weekly staff care event in the EC, but I heard one of the PICU nurses behind me say “I wish I had her when I was a kid.” Godly Play truly reaches everyone who will be still enough to wonder.
-Chaplain Jessica Shannon, MDiv, BCC
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